PLEASE UNDERSTAND !!!!!!!

[finlyalive]

When we were first diagnosed, the pastor of the church told me that I was possessed by demons. That was comforting -- NOT. We worked with our therapist to get through this, but stopped before ever really dealing with anything. The fear of being possessed was greater than the desire to heal. It seems every time we try to work on healing, horrible things happen. The past three years are no exception. We haven't given up at this point, but everything we have ever had has been taken from us. Being brought up in church, turning to G@D is almost second nature and, personally, seems to be the only way out of our current situation. It is the only string of hope there is, no matter how thin. One of my people does the church thing and I think she is the only reason we have gotten to where we are. At the same time, the fear becomes overwhelming. What if.....? So, we have just accepted things as they are and try so hard not to rock the boat.

Religion was never used as a form of ab*se except possibly from that pastor. It is still scary, though. Igraine has a wonderful idea with using an alternate word.