Patterns

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(08-05-2014, 03:57 PM)The People Wrote: In keeping with something that used to happen before I moved to the city it has started again. With a T I had for years huge crises would occur while she was away. This was not typical "OMG what will I do" stuff. Things like mother dying, very, very bad memories rising to the top without warning causing H. Problems at work with boss.... Here in Edmonton I have a T and PDoc (always fired pdocs as they were all asses who did more harm than good). Both are good but yet again they are on vacation at the same time. And yet again I have developed a major crisis, this time it is physical health relation. Panic button has already been hit. We did email them and T offered to call us in PM but we felt guilty enough emailing them. They have a right to time off.

As well, a thought that occurred while I pulled into my parking space and won't go away. This is a trade of for my writing starting to turn into something. Not something big but it is a start. I cannot just have good. Someone always has to spit in my jello.

It's like Monopoly (the board game) where you don't get to succeed in the final instant of your turn and lose out on collecting the $200. Sorry for the vagueness. It's been a long time. The concept of life patterns is something I've been wrestling with for years. I don't know that what I'll have to say will be particularly comforting, except in terms of there being a lot going on, and that you're not alone.

If it's not complicated enough, there is something to be said for coincidence, which needs to be evaluated on an event-by-event basis. As the flotsam and jetsam of life collide, and there may or may not be connections of sorts, these might deserve relating the endpoints (personal disasters + T being unavailable) to your understandable need for help. The vernacular is: "It couldn't happen at a worse time." Yes? The same answer might not hold true for each instance.

I'm in the process of writing up something for you, and for myself. It's important for me to be as clear as possible. Honesty is a given. Will get back.
take care,
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