Having difficulty figuring this one out....

[cew]

So new here. I never thought of myself as a victim. Part of the survival mechanism was denial of, dissociation from, all experiences that would indicate I was victimized as a child. 'I' still cannot retrieve those memories. They are sequestered. On a cognitive level, if my T says these things happened to you and they constitute abuse, I can intellectually understand that and allow that a child was victimized. But to identify with the term 'victim' would require having feelings about what happened. That's too much to take.