frustrated with self (vent of the day?)

[mosaic]

i go to these training workshops/seminars and feel so positive about what i learn and look forward to applying it in my practice with my clients

by about a week later i'm so sure i don't remember a thing, and sometimes it makes the pre-appointment anxiety even worse (because i "should" be remembering and knowing how to apply it)

i just get so frustrated that i can't hold on to the positive vibes etc that i have at the end of the workshop.


another thing - this field is one where it's better not to be isolated from others who do the work... and here i am flying solo in an office all by myself, with no one else to connect to.... and trying to figure out how to connect with others in the area.... oh man talk about panic!

oh okay, i managed to send off ONE email to another practitioner in the area asking if she would like to go to lunch... i am wondering if she'll even respond (after she's through laughing)

where did my self confidence (what little there was) go?