Hi from Tora, i'm new

[Five of Hearts]

OK, I'm back. Paraphrasing what i put in my original post.

Hi from Þóra, I'm new. I like surfing and dancing and I'm a student.

I don't have a DX and have never told anyone outside MM that i think i'm probably multiple.

I've had other people living inside me since i can remember.

There are more than five of us but five main ones including me, hence the name. (and the symbolic tarot meaning of five of hearts)

I never considered multiple until recently when I tried to find out what dissociate means (i'd never heard it before, it was on TV).
That lead me to some websites that described my experiences of having people inside me and since then I've been finding out more and more. 

When I was younger I thought everyone was like me but by the time I started high school I was starting to think maybe everyone else only has one person inside them.

I'd never heard of DID, I had heard of MPD but had a totally inaccurate idea of what it was. I did freak out a bit when I found all the DID stuff.

I had never considered myself multiple beforehand, I didn't know what i was.

Until about a year ago my experience of other people inside me was just a physical presence and thoughts that had there own "sound" but they weren't my thoughts or my sound or my presence.

Then something that I don't properly understand happened and I "met" my alters. Now they have names and I know what they look like. It was like I got sucked into another world where my alters lived, I had no control over it, I didn't like it. I had little control of my body when it happened, I could still see and hear the real world but it wasn't me. It still scares me.

Since meeting everyone things have been better and a lot of my life makes more sense. I'ts like they wanted me to know them properly, not just vaguely.

The five of us are very close, (the rest i'm not so sure about).

I'v herd things about, protectors, nurturers, trauma holders, fragments etc but don't really know if that applies but suspect it probably does, still feeling my way.

The main ones I've met so far are Anna, Hanna, Kira and Tenzi. (plus myself makes five).

Maybe more (i suspect).

I'm not saying I have DID (not my place, it's a DX).

5oH