Sharing time?

[Cammy]

The fact is that this 'conflict' I thought happened was something that really happened in my head. I imagined that the other person said something to me in a certain tone of voice that was negative and deprecating. it was solely my interpretation because online we cannot 'hear' the other person's tone of voice. So, I went off based on a fiction that my own mind devised, but I was so messed up at the time that I don't wonder this happened. Even though the other person meant no real harm, I felt that it was unsafe to post - that every word written was going to be held up to scrutiny and misinterpreted. The fault here was all my own. I've gotten past it. I am ashamed it ever happened. Normally when someone is extremely overtly negative to me online, I simply ignore them permanently and move on without comment. But, because of recent life trauma, this is not what I did. I am sorry to everyone, but it is a good lesson to me to just not react. Next time I have a strong reaction to something I think someone has said, I am going to simply wait 24 hours, re-read the post, and then decide if my first impressions were correct. If they were correct, then the best course for me is not to respond at all. Live and learn. I hope I can just move past this and resume my place here, and that's what I am trying to do. Right now I am proceeding without a host, which is good because I don't think I have any real opinions about anything. My experiences are intact, but emotional reaction is lacking. Sometimes that not so bad. It at least keeps me out of trouble or of reacting.