Sharing time?

[The People]

We have newbies that have not been diagnosed for long and old folks who came with the boards. Perhaps if we share a bit about ourselves it will get some conversations going. I will start.

I discovered the predecessor to MM in 1992 or 93 which is when I was diagnosed. Divided Hearts folded and some great people have taken up the flame and started MM. There used to be a lot more of us but people moved on for various reasons. I myself left and came back because I missed the place.

My mother d**d in'92 and shorty after that I started to figure things out. I had already been noticing things but she was my primary ugly person so it was deemed to be safe when she was gone. Well, safer. This was one area where MM was huge. It was the only place where I could find people who had a similar story to me. I am also quite sure that she was Multi, as is a sister. No dealing with it there due to time and place.

In the beginning 5 alters were identified. As time went on the numbers grew exponentially. I was so grateful that I could come here and ask questions like "does this make sense"? Like I tell other people there are no stupid questions. Many others have had the same experiences as I did. It was so reassuring to know that. It was also reassuring that I didn't have to use the root person's (body) name as I was living in a smaller community and I didn't want anyone to come across me.

I have always had issues with my anger and sometimes they would come out here. People were kind but firm. They let me know that such outbursts were not acceptable. I had to learn to rephrase my frustrations. As I look back I realize that many things that I have learned on here have helped me in the 3D. I am more prone to thinking before I speak.

People are allowed to laugh here too although most of us don't feel like it during those first years. They are too busy worrying that they will out themselves. I was that way too although I told more people than I care to admit. I actually met 4-5 multies(people with DID) in my community so I swear that it is like Gaydar. Speaking of which I feel that is easier to come out gay these days than to acknowledge that one has DID. People watch too many stupid shows that present us as insane murderers. There have been a few sociopaths over the years as one can have more than one diagnosis (dx). Then there are those, professionals included who don't believe in DID.

Speaking of DX, so many of us started out with the dx of Borderline Personality Disorder prior to finding someone who figures out what is happening. That has been another benefit of MM for people. They will ask "what should I look for in a T" and they get a long list of questions to ask and a reminder that one does not have to stick with an unhelpful T or PDoc.

I don't know how many alters I have. Two says 102. People with this sort of number However, she also argues with God and lectures the kitten. So we don't always abide by her accuracy. However, she was first on board so she knows a lot more than many of the others. We have 3 front runners who look after day to day and several others who are intertwined with the front group. Two is always around.

When I first started visiting there wasn't any place where people could talk about the dark times. After a while the Hard Hat Zone was added with the rule that what is said there stays there. I accidentally broke that rule once or twice and had to be reminded. This rule is for your own post as well things that other members share.

I have had a lot of ups and downs since I first started coming here. Loss of furry family and 2 legged ones. Loss of people who meant a lot, did a lot of damage or the most confusing, both.

I miss some of the old friends and work hard to keep MM going. I hope you will too. And for Newbies I hope this helps. I really have come a long way although there are still dark times. They are more short lived though and I have not been an in patient head case for 15 or more years. I give points to MM for that. I live alone so it is nice to drop in and just say 'life sucks' or 'Guess what I did!' or "I got a new kitty!"

As in 3D or the outside world we feel like many of the people we met here are more like family than the people who share my genes.