Disconnected

[Cammy]

Thank you all for your posts. I believe that this sense of disconnection is yet another 'symptom' of our dissociative disorder. Unfortunately, as JP pointed out, it renders the ability to feel positive things somewhat dampened or inert as well, which is frustrating. I also believe that by our very natures, we tend to keep ourselves isolated, both physically and psychologically. When out in public, we are guarded and protective of our inner selves and put forth a public interface to deal with all the everyday people and situations out there. All of this creates distance and isolation. It is definitely frustrating and while I had hoped that this would get better over time, it is in fact getting more pronounced. Here at least, I feel I can express myself in a way that is impossible anywhere else, and I wonder if the secrecy of hiding our multiplicity from the outside world doesn't also play a part in this sense of distance. Ah well, just another challenge many of us face. The advantage of this site is the realization that I am not alone in this. That is definitely some kind of comfort. I truly don't know what I'd do without the wonderful support of others who understand, and I thank you all for this.