Family

[purpleball]

I guess I'm just terrible at getting my meaning across. The body is 24, and there are two people related to the body that I can contact. The problem is that they're not my family, just people related to the host. They're okay I guess, but they're just people I know. We're not really friends or anything. I want my own family. I have a hard time being around the host's family, because they expect me to be him, and I can't deal with that very long before it starts driving me up the wall. They're more like people I put up with until I get to leave, instead of people I want to be around. I want people that I've grown up with and care about. People that I don't have to give half-assed excuses for my life, because they'd know who I am. It wouldn't be so bad if I could just make the host deal with his family, but seeing as he's slightly dead, it's usually my problem. It just rubs it in my face how much I'll never be the person they expect me to be, and how I'll never have actual people related to me. It's the kind of lonely I can't really talk about, because people say "but you have family, they're right there", but I can't seem to explain that I barely know these people, and how I don't have my own family, just the two people that think I'm someone else. How can they really be family if they don't even know who you are?