Semantics

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the host concept does seem to work for some systems, tho never seemed to fit ours. hosting seems to require a permanent hierarchy, while fronters can take turns as needed. for us, people appeared - couldn't say if they split or formed or came forward. however, we definitely have 'nesting dolls' in the way described by MDs. there are very strong internal hierarchies and there is no real effort towards democracy, there just isn't one supreme 'host.' there are three powerful group leaders (leader is the wrong word, more like speakers for their groups). one has been missing since we last tried to date, one tries never to come out, and then there's 'me'. i deal with most of the normal daily functioning, but again i'm more of a speaker for others rather than an individual - i can't really think for myself and am more of a fragment. i share with a couple of other non-verbal fragments to maintain a functioning interface with the outside. i/we consider this role as one of the powerful within the system because life has become much more stable so i've become increasingly responsible for routine functioning.