Hi

[Downtherabbithole]

Thank you for your welcome n supportive words. I have been trying to live so long as a singular person for so long because I either couldn't accept the insiders existance, or felt it was unsafe to explore what it all meant. Now I look back and wonder how I didn't see the signs growing up, but I guess that's heinsight for you. It's nice though in the middle of another round of exploration of the insiders and time when the changes n loss of time are so obvious because of the unstableness of life atm. I hope this time it won't overwhelm me cause me to shove it all back down again as has done in past, but it is comforting and encouraging to find a community of people who understand what it's like n won't judge or condemn and won't think I'm just crazy. A place I can explore and connect in a safe place. It's like I was drowning in the ocean of life and finding this place was like some one throwing me a lifesaver or life raft. I look forward to getting to know people here.