Purging the past

[The People]

We got rid of a lot of stuff before we moved. However, once we were here we realized that more had to go. We started getting rid of things given to us by people who have hurt us. Who walked out of our lives because of their own reasons. (The Ocean if you are reading we don't mean you). Old friends who are no longer friends,. Or pretend to still be friends but things are so not what they were when we were given the gifts (a tea pot for example.

Some stuff came from an old T who hurt Peak badly. She rarely comes out anymore except to help Two write. As we were dividing up Christmas ornaments today we found one she gave us. We ended up deciding to keep that one. We like Jasper the Bear and he came at a time when things were good. We tossed other things.

It is like purging. Not the purging as in ED. Purging as in letting go. There have been tears with some of it and some stuff that we just couldn't toss. A few things came from FOO. We almost tossed them but they were sent to us at a time when I was still trying to be part of a family. So they will stay. For now anyway.

We cried. We have cried a lot through this process. At times we thought we were going to lose it completely. We didn't though. We are still here. And I think we are stronger for it.

However, while we have also made progress in the apartment it is still a f*ck*ng mess.