best friends

[The People]

Only one person of all those that I wrote to responded and she is the one who has been there the most for me. I just had to let go and included pretty much everyone in the letter. With some people I would probably leave them out as they have been good friends.

I wasn't telling these people that I was mad because none of them were my best friend. I just needed to tell them how much I hurt. How hard my life is. Things I have done to try and help me/us/people like us only to be slammed.

I even sent a PS today explaining that. The person I am most angry with is me.

It does hurt though. And I think that I have held on too long with some friends. Like my "best friend from college." She has come to my province and made no attempt to meet up half way for a cup of coffee. Others with similar examples. But some who tried and we just grew apart. becauseoutside of here people really don't get what it is like to have a couple of dozen people directing your life; all from the inside. Tired.