wasn't sure where to put this....

[Dreamscapes Collectives]

...here or therapy lane. Finally decided to just post it here. We've been having a bad time of it and most of our posts have been...well certainly not the kind of thing that typically helps people. And we hate that. We don't like people, but we do like helping (I don't know how that works). Anyway, this is one of the things we've been dealing with...

Lupus SLE and Cognitive Dysfunction:

The following key components of cognition that could be impaired in SLE were identified at the ACR symposium,
1) Simple attention—the ability to register and retain information
2) Reasoning—problem solving
3) Executive skills and complex attention—planning, organizing, sequencing information
4) Memory—learning, recall
5) Visual spatial processing—recognizing visual patterns
6) Language—verbal fluency
7) Psychomotor speed—ability to rapidly process and produce written and oral information.

Massive problems with almost all of what's listed has been my life for the last several months. How do you remember when your brain is busy scrambling your memory circuits? *sigh*

Yes, my Lupus is currently not being treated. It's been, I dunno, five years since I was on medication for it. I didn't figure it was that important till an ER doctor mentioned that I had brain damage and needed to see a neurologist.

No, I haven't seen a neurologist. Blame my insurance for that one. Trying to find a specialist is damn near impossible, especially when you're also dealing with rotating fatigue and insomnia. Sleep deprivation doesn't help.

I know I prolly share more than most people really care about here, and I've decided that I don't care anymore. I have to be me.

After all, someone somewhere might take this in and help me find myself when whatever-the-hell is destroying my mind succeeds. My partner helps, but she has numerous physical and psychological issues to deal with as well. We help each other as much as we can. That's really all we can do.

If I could just manage to remember the things I need to...

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