Having difficulty figuring this one out....

[Tangled Web]

Hi Mosaic. Now that fits to a degree. In my house (childhood) a victim was ALWAYS to blame for what had happened. I never wanted to look at being a victim because I never wanted to see that it was my fault.......I never talk about why I think it my fault either and when you look at yourself as a survivor....it was almost like you didn't have to........if that makes any sense. In my eyes people looked at you differently also, like you were stronger. So I never get into the feelings of guilt and shame that are stuffed deep inside. They represent being a victim and it was always more important to prove to people how strong you are so you never showed them any weakness. I think I am rambling now.......I see my T today and wonder if she will understand.........
Tangled