What would you do?

[The People]

when we worked we needed a car.if we were still working... we had a period where we lived in an oil city, my friends were married. their husbands had oil jobs. it was then that we got our first taste of doing what we wanted. Grey especially.clothes, travel (not far) eating out... trying t emulate everyone else but without the well to do partner to help fund things.Everything just got out of control. We managed to get ourselves out of it but when we moved here... things just went from bad to worse. I still get mad and say I deserve but there is nothing can be done now.