Jealousy?

[mosaic]

it makes sense to me that you are having troubling feelings... you as a system have gone through a huge, major shift recently that was not experienced as positive, and your husband is making all sorts of positive strides.

you are in need of validation and healing also and so seeing him receiving what you are also needing could bring up feelings of jealousy.

be kind to yourselves. judging yourself harshly for these feelings doesn't appear to help you feel better.