Can this be done?

[Cammy]

Yes, since proposing the idea I have discovered that in actuality my psyche was preparing me for the new persona to become my current host. Once I realized that the process was taking place by itself naturally without any conscious effort on my part, that's when the little light bulb went on with it's "aha!" I am finding that each host, as the years go by, seems to have a smaller compartment for storing trauma. Once sated, a change occurs. I didn't quite see this one coming, but in view of a continuing series of negative events piling up on top of one another, I guess my current host, who has been fairly stable since about 2011, has finally decided to 'retire'. She felt like she was standing on a large hemisphere of pure ice and seemed to just keep slipping off the mound - continually of late.

My new host is fortunately standing on flat, solid ground, and is doing quite well. She definitely has a greater degree of maturity and emotional intelligence and control. Each new host through time seems to always have evolved into a better version of ME, so I am well-pleased with this latest upgrade (now I sound like I'm describing a computer system, but this pretty much accurately depicts the process I have been through since a child). All the best personality traits of my last host are still there, but many of the negative reactive components are gone. Much of the recent trauma memory is also fading and becoming increasingly difficult to access. Upwards and onwards I guess.

Just to be on the safe side, however, I am seeing my D.I.D. T next week to be sure that all is well. I can say that this host is the best I have ever been, and the sheer pleasure of not having to expend copious amounts of energy to run it as I would a 'social interphase' is quite refreshing. I can only wonder how long this one will be able to last in the world of rude, impatient, disrespectful, and uncaring people that we so often run across. I am hoping that she possesses a species of resilience superior to my previous hosts, but that is yet to be tested OUT THERE in the big wide world of peoploids.

Thank you all for your considerate comments and for sharing your experiences with me. It is very much appreciated.

Igraine