T is leaving

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Thank you for the responses. It does help. I have made it through the last few days and am coming to some semblance of equilibrium. I will work with my T on this transition.

Nats - the insiders have various reactions. The little girl is hiding and inconsolable. She feels as if she is losing her mommy and feels like she is being abandoned for the bad man all over again, so vulnerable. She cannot comprehend why someone would leave her. My protector is very cynical, harsh and critical. What did I expect? He feels lied to and T was the only one he trusted. One of the others, I call her Flea, wants to apply the geographical fix and get out of town, run away and have her dramatic adventure starting over somewhere, preferably with a big romance. She can just cut off all relationships and move on. This conflicts with my outside life in which I have been married for 30 years (to a wonderful, sweet, clueless man who can't make heads or tails out of DID) raised a family and am aging in place at the family homestead.

I am journaling all this to process with my T. I am giving myself lots of quiet and low stress. It has been hard for the last few days, to sit with all these feelings and not act out in a rash manner. I am beginning to feel better and better able to function. I've learned a lot from my T and will always be grateful for her teachings.

Thank you all for your kind words of support and caring. It has been very helpful. I hope I can be there for you, too.