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Remembering is like - The People - 06-02-2015, 09:47 PM
RE: Remembering is like - Tangled Web - 06-03-2015, 05:16 PM
RE: Remembering is like - Unity - 06-03-2015, 06:38 PM
RE: Remembering is like - MakersDozn - 06-07-2015, 02:06 PM
RE: Remembering is like - Unity - 06-08-2015, 06:48 AM
RE: Remembering is like - The People - 06-16-2015, 07:51 PM
RE: Remembering is like - MakersDozn - 06-17-2015, 10:26 AM
RE: Remembering is like - The People - 06-17-2015, 07:48 PM
RE: Remembering is like - Unity - 06-18-2015, 07:30 PM
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We do think that some of our behaviors overlap those of CSA survivors, even though we have no memory of any CSA. We've always been extra-sensitive to sensory input, so it's possible that we've simply had extreme reactions to normal touch. But we'll never know, and we don't want to go looking for that kind of information.


I have this thing to of avoiding physical contact, specially in france i notice there is often lot of physical contact involved with smacking girl to say hi, or handshake, and i often been told i look a bit aloof with this, or girl think i avoid them because of this, but well it's hard to explain lol In england and usa it get less noticed because there is less physical contact and it's less weird if you just say hi and that's it =)

A girl once told me this also that i had all the same reflex and attitude with this than csa, but i think any kind of violence, or authority abuse, physical over powering of any sort can do this kind of reaction. I'm pretty sure plenty of victim of police abuse/torture can have this kind of things too.

But i guess it can be related with memories that are not totally in a fully "cognitive level" like more physiological/emotional/physical reactions that are more instinctive than psychological. Specially with dissociation, it's a bit linked to what is described in the other article i posted, that when the regular flow of memory is disrupted because of high stress/dissociation, it can be hard to remember everything in a normal manner, but plenty of reflex in attitude, emotional reaction can still be also considered as a memory of some trauma or threatening situation, or resulting from it.



But sometime i know for plenty of things or period it's like i keep some minimum of key event and things to keep a coherent explanation for some period of time, but i knoiw it's only partial, but sufficient to explain most of what i can be asked about, but when i'm asked more in detail, or more in depth than just mechanical series of event, it's clear it become different to really be able to be immersed in the memory and compose a more consistent and coherent explanation of my behavior etc it's just like head breaking maze with plenty of intense emotion linked to it lol It's the kind of case where it can do a bit like tangled web spoke in the other thread with lungs paralysis or idk when i feel totally unable to give a coherent and consistent account of some period of my life =) Even if i can still intelectually and superficially explain to a degree to explain quickly to someone, it's not the same than totally accepting the whole situation with the whole emotional/physical and sense of self and presence etc
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Remembering is like - The People - 06-02-2015, 09:47 PM
RE: Remembering is like - Tangled Web - 06-03-2015, 05:16 PM
RE: Remembering is like - Unity - 06-03-2015, 06:38 PM
RE: Remembering is like - MakersDozn - 06-07-2015, 02:06 PM
RE: Remembering is like - Unity - 06-08-2015, 06:48 AM
RE: Remembering is like - The People - 06-16-2015, 07:51 PM
RE: Remembering is like - MakersDozn - 06-17-2015, 10:26 AM
RE: Remembering is like - The People - 06-17-2015, 07:48 PM
RE: Remembering is like - Unity - 06-18-2015, 07:30 PM

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