I wish.......

[Tangled Web]

My T she is always telling us that.
It feels like a damn has broken inside and I am being hit with ALL these emotions.
It adds more panic to what is already being felt.
Strangers have been in my house. They are selling my condo.
My space has been and security it feels has been violated.
They have been fixing things in my bedroom.
I can't keep them out. Just like I couldn't keep my dad out. It is really messing with our head. And I once again feel like I have no control. I can't control the feelings. I can't control who enters my home or my bedroom. Everything is such a mess and the tears just won't go away. I can't stop them from falling.
I can't deal with this. I don't know how. It just feels completely overwhelming. I just want it to all stop and go away.
You add all the external messages I hear and the internal messages. It still doesn't make it ok. Nothing is ok. It isn't ok to cry! But the tears still fall..................
I can't make it feel safe in my home anymore.
We are struggling