Internal battle over therapy

[57thomas]

I've only been in therapy a few months, and am having increasing internal conflict over continuing with it. My inner problem child has thrown tantrums and tried to alienate everyone possible, destroyed emails and journal entries without my knowledge, etc. I missed an appointment last week because I switched 2 hrs before the appt, but didn't come back until exactly the time the appt was to start. I'm new to all this and am at a loss how to prevent this from happening. I don't think I can even survive without therapy at this point.