7 th heaven

[Downtherabbithole]

Watching the show 7th heaven I always wished I'd had a big brother like Matt Camden. One that looked out for me n cared about me. Now more than ever now that my brother disowned my family and me by default. Then they disowned him right back. Now I feel more like my rocky position in the family is even more rocky, like if I disappointed them at all or didn't meet their standards they might disown me too, it runs in family n I already feel less than adequate. I know mu parents felt hurt by my brother turning on them. In law issues n access issues. I was tild to stay out of it, so I did. I'm on the outskirts of the family anyway, so they said it had nothing to do with me. But by default, I lost my brother, sister in law n nephew plus feeling less secure in my position in the family. I want to run away to fantasy world where could even just be around the Camden family. Just to be loved, accepted, and wanted. To feel worth something