Difficulty Letting Go of Feelings, Memories

[MakersDozn]

We're glad to see you back, TW. And we agree with everything that you said.

I read this sentenced and it struck something from within. We are constantly looking for evidence, reality, so we can feel validated. And I might be way off here but for us it is about if we have the evidence, then it is ok to have to feeling, the feelings I guess can be justified and valid. It has more to do with being believed and finding the truth.

Yes. We've never felt believed when it came to things that matter. I don't mean things like who started an argument with our brother. I mean believed about feelings and needs and the substance of who we are.

I do know we always get our self worth from other people also. We are not able to find that from within yet and not even sure how to.

The way we are dealing with these types of issues at the moment is talking to our T. Learning about feelings, learning they are not as a black and white as we thought they were. Having proof or evidence isn't always possible and trying to trust enough to just believe her words like she just believes our words just because we say them. Not an easy thing to do at ALL.

Yes to this as well. We keep trying to remember that feelings are not always black and white. Feelings have always scared me, but I continue to immerse myself in them, because I prefer feelings to logic and reason. It doesn't make sense to me that I prefer something that scares me, but it's true.

We're trying to trust our T enough to believe what she says "just because." And it is hard.

Thanks and take care,

Charity