Confused

[nats]

hi Mira (is it OK to call you this or do you prefer we include the 2286?),
you'll find all different kinds of community members here. some of us chose never to integrate, others chose to pursue it actively and some are open to either option. the reason for mentioning this is just to say that hearing the voices of needy others inside doesn't mean your life has to fall apart. it sounds like you're reaching for an important goal and maybe that's setting off a reaction inside. also sounds like you've spent a lot of time in healing and strengthening yourself/ves and are maybe in a much better position to relate to these new-sounding voices than you might have been in the early years.

i guess we're just trying to say that it may feel scary, but that doesn't necessarily mean that it's not something you can deal with. we're glad you posted.