Overwhelming and extremely scary day

[Cammy]

Hi DF. Yow...that is a very scary thing. I'm like you..don't like Ps much because, well, we all know what they're like. It is encouraging that your T helped pick this one, so MAYBE he/she will be more keyed in to what DID is and how we are to be treated. My P is against any drugging to 'take the voices away' or to 'stop the hallucinations'. He believes that these things are quite naturally a part of the multiple personality and should not be suppressed. All the recent literature on medical treatment of DID is definitely moving away from using antipsychotics for treatment. Sometimes, like in my case, I have to use mild sedatives to control the intense anxiety, but my P has forbidden the further use of SSRIs and antipsychotics. The problem is that everyone's system is different, and even that system has different needs at different times. It would be super if you could be able to just tell your P if something he is doing or is proposing to do makes you uncomfortable. Maybe even tell him why it makes you feel uncomfortable. I know that's not easy, but if we say nothing then he's just going to do what he's going to do and you will come away unhappy and feeling misunderstood. Sometimes when it's hard for us to talk to a new P, it has helped to bring along an advocate - a trusted person who understands us and our needs. Sometimes they can speak for us. I tend to lapse into a quiet 11 year old with new authority figures, so I just can't speak up for myself while I'm like that. Anyway, these are just things that have helped me. I hope that everything goes okay and that this new P turns out to be a decent choice for your needs. Good luck.