Inertia

[mosaic]

for starters, it is NOT sign of a bad character. i dont know the answer to what it is, but i know i deal with the same issue to a varying degree. (my kitchen is far from immaculate so i think you're ahead of me there). i'm not a real social person either, although i crave a good "best friend"... haven't had one in 20 years though.

i'm married to a monomind, so i don't have the same couple dynamic as you - and he's more of an extrovert, while i'm a strong introvert so we have issues sometimes around socializing.

i think you need to give yourself credit for what you do get accomplished - taking care of the pets, keeping your kitchen immaculate, etc. you seem to dismiss that as not mattering because of the things you struggle doing.

just rambling now... i definitely can relate to the idea of inertia... my cluttered house is a sure sign of my inertia when it comes to housekeeping.