Inertia

[Cammy]

What is it about being unable to do a single thing ever? I mean I spend every day telling myself that I'll get stuff done TOMORROW. I just don't do anything. Can't seem to find a single motivation. I am able to take good care of my pets, my kitchen is kept immaculate, things that require daily maintenance get done, but anything extra, forget it. I have about 6 months of laundry collecting in huge laundry bags and I keep waiting to get up and DO something about it, but I don't. It's like I am frozen and that's that. It's a major event when i have to leave the house. Neither my husband nor myself have any interest in visiting other people - too stressful. We both have DID and relating to monominds is a nightmare of pretending to be like something approaching normal and takes up oodles of energy. Way too stressful. The only people we allow in our lives are people who know about our DID and other issues and accept us with open arms, but who totally get it when we just can't be social. I've never quite figured out if i'm incredibly lazy, if it's the DID and the anxiety issues, or if it is the low energy from the hypothyroidism. Maybe it's a combination, or maybe I'm just used to doing nothing day after day. Does anyone else have this problem? Does anyone else find it impossible to do the day to day stuff that most other people seem to do with ease? Once I found my husband and we are quite satisfied with each other's company, we are even less social than ever. The only real outing is church on Sunday and even then we don't stick around for any type of meet and greet - we both bolt just before the end of the service. He at least get things done around the house while I couldn't care less. I keep trying, in my mind, but putting it all into action is a whole other matter. Whatever. This self-imposed isolation and inertia is probably habitually ingrained at this point. I just keep wondering if it is an offshoot of my mental health issues, or just a sign of a bad character. Anyone else like this ?