Family

[The People]

While I think it is worse for people who went through what we experienced, family struggles are commonplace in so many families. Sadly, while I watched 2 female friends grow closer to their mothers before they d**d there was not that opportunity for us. We were such a mess when our mother got sick(for the extended version read the book if it ever comes out). Physically sick.

In reality though she would never be able to explain why she did what she did. She was probably multie herself plus had to cope with a house full of kids. And drugged to the eyeballs. Legal stuff but they took her off 13 types not long before she left for good.

For other people they learn just to accept the quirks or the distance or whatever else. For us how can we grasp the things that happened? We cannot just learn to laugh it off. Both my parents have d**d. People had no idea how to respond to us so they said nothing. But we were in mourning too. Mourning the childhood they stole from us. How we would never have a chance to understand. That is an impossibility anyway. We understand that they were sick and crazy but... so many more questions.