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[Tangled Web]

Well you have been gone awhile ! Things are going well with our T. She has been there for us, which still surprises me. I half expect her to turn and run the other way but she hasn't. This last week has been extremely difficult for us and we have been going through some things-acceptance mostly.........or trying to accept things. She invited us over on Friday to her office and we sat there in her presence and just bawled our eyes out. We let her see us in that state and it was SO HARD! But we did it. That was HUGE for us. She was comforting and it gave me this weird feeling inside. I don't know the name of it and never have been any good at putting names to feelings but it was like we wanted her there. We wanted her to see us and it was ok. Usually we hide ourselves away from everyone and don't let them see any of this stuff-we don't want people to see us like that-but not this time. And for some reason the words just flew out of my mouth without censoring anything-it was like for the first time in my life I was allowed to actually talk. It was an unbelievable feeling. I spent two hours with her-sitting there either crying or talking and sometimes just quietly sitting there while she sat with me. So our relationship has grown and is pretty good at the moment. The stuff inside is hard to deal with but I think I have someone now to help me and is there for me.

I am glad to hear that things are progressing well with your new T. I hope it continues and that you will find that bond that you are looking for when it is time to.
Take care my friend