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			<title><![CDATA[Email.]]></title>
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			<pubDate>Sun, 19 May 2013 23:14:32 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[I will not give graphic descriptions of red dot material, or of the other things I will speak of.  Some medical and sp. material included.  I really don't know if Steam is the correct board for this post.  <br />
<br />
For about a year, starting in 2005, I did volunteer work at a store near where I used to live.  I thought they were just some New Age Yoga religious thing, but they turned out to be a d*ng*r**s c*lt.  I told them up front I wasn't interested in affiliating with a sp.organization.  The store was pleasant and air conditioned.  I worked a few hours a week on financial records.  I innocently told person I worked for that they used the same energy in their massages to break up energy blockages as did martial artists.  I had a couple of sessions, which worked.  Eventually, I was invited to a special service at their church.  As a sp. researcher, I did consider going, but Googled the person in charge and saw that he was ev*l, without a doubt.  I told them it would be inappropriate for me to attend, and that I would be terminating my volunteer work at the store.  This was politely done.<br />
  <br />
However, some time after, I was att*ck*d from behind (by touch) as I sat in a neighborhood coffee house.  This sort of thing would not hold up in a court of law, and no one else was aware of what happened anyhow.  It was the person I had worked for.  I managed to get away and heal myself.  I wrote to the manager that any further approaches in any way were not welcome by me.  My tone was not polite.  That was in 2006.<br />
  <br />
Have I come to h*rm because of them?  Yes, but not in a manner that I would discuss here.  I'm a good person, a monomind, not without flaws, but not rejecting myself in any way.  I am concerned with certain aspects of the human condition, and my curiosity, modest abilities, and some poor choices, have gotten me into trouble more than once.  <br />
There's no help forthcoming, except for what I can find for myself, in myself.  As a moderate individualist/iconoclast sort, I don't exactly win popularity contests.  Besides, I would learn from the help given, even if that was unintended.  In a word, I'm scr*w*d.<br />
<br />
About an hour ago, I got an email.  I'm on an in-house mailing list, from which I should have been removed.  I probably was, and reinstated.  It seems the person I worked with is critically ill.  Can't say I care, given what they've done to me, which I had begged years ago for them to stop.<br />
<br />
There are about 30 email addresses on this thing, and I figured I'd just block them, but it doesn't work that way.  Further email from these m*nst*rs can be made to go to trash bin.  I want it to be blocked (out of my sight), or rejected and returned to sender.  I wrote to email place and asked what can be done?  Like they're going to answer.  <br />
Sure, I can think of alternatives like changing my email addy.  I don't want to do that.  I have too much to do in too short a time now, and there's a lot involved.  Besides, I have a lot invested in that name....  But, I might have to.  There is no doubt in my mind that I will be contacted further.  I will not answer.<br />
<br />
My life has gone from p**nful to being at the tip of an abyss of chaos since the end of March (a traditionally very bad time for me for some reason).  This includes a misdiagnosis which led to medicating me with something that made me more ill.  Then I went to a dermatologist, who did a lot mess up my case, along with shall be say an unkindness that occurred during minor s*rg*ry to remove what he was trying to fool me into thinking was a skin tag, but which I was later told was biopsied as a wart.  I'm not sure that is so either, and have doubts that the procedure was done properly.  It is an increasing policy to play head games and lie to people over 65.  I can't believe how I'm spoken to by medical professionals.  I just let them talk.  If they're not trustworthy and don't respect me as a human being, I want to know up front.  The whole thing is so out of hand.<br />
SP follows:<br />
*<br />
*<br />
*<br />
*<br />
*<br />
*<br />
*  <br />
<br />
It is my feeling that this world, universe, is in a h*ly war.  This is coming from an atheist, of a complex kind.  I've engaged  something I don't understand.  It's not a matter of political parties, or religion one-upmanship, or economic theories, or truth vs fantasy re terrorists, etc.  It's something else.  <br />
Sometimes a voice of reason shows up in a newspaper, but it's drowned out.  Life as we have known it is disappearing, replaced by war and bs buzz words.  In my experience with the unknown, there is too much intent consciousness to be ignored.<br />
  <br />
I know I have to find my own way out.<br />
<br />
Thank you,<br />
tweeter]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[I will not give graphic descriptions of red dot material, or of the other things I will speak of.  Some medical and sp. material included.  I really don't know if Steam is the correct board for this post.  <br />
<br />
For about a year, starting in 2005, I did volunteer work at a store near where I used to live.  I thought they were just some New Age Yoga religious thing, but they turned out to be a d*ng*r**s c*lt.  I told them up front I wasn't interested in affiliating with a sp.organization.  The store was pleasant and air conditioned.  I worked a few hours a week on financial records.  I innocently told person I worked for that they used the same energy in their massages to break up energy blockages as did martial artists.  I had a couple of sessions, which worked.  Eventually, I was invited to a special service at their church.  As a sp. researcher, I did consider going, but Googled the person in charge and saw that he was ev*l, without a doubt.  I told them it would be inappropriate for me to attend, and that I would be terminating my volunteer work at the store.  This was politely done.<br />
  <br />
However, some time after, I was att*ck*d from behind (by touch) as I sat in a neighborhood coffee house.  This sort of thing would not hold up in a court of law, and no one else was aware of what happened anyhow.  It was the person I had worked for.  I managed to get away and heal myself.  I wrote to the manager that any further approaches in any way were not welcome by me.  My tone was not polite.  That was in 2006.<br />
  <br />
Have I come to h*rm because of them?  Yes, but not in a manner that I would discuss here.  I'm a good person, a monomind, not without flaws, but not rejecting myself in any way.  I am concerned with certain aspects of the human condition, and my curiosity, modest abilities, and some poor choices, have gotten me into trouble more than once.  <br />
There's no help forthcoming, except for what I can find for myself, in myself.  As a moderate individualist/iconoclast sort, I don't exactly win popularity contests.  Besides, I would learn from the help given, even if that was unintended.  In a word, I'm scr*w*d.<br />
<br />
About an hour ago, I got an email.  I'm on an in-house mailing list, from which I should have been removed.  I probably was, and reinstated.  It seems the person I worked with is critically ill.  Can't say I care, given what they've done to me, which I had begged years ago for them to stop.<br />
<br />
There are about 30 email addresses on this thing, and I figured I'd just block them, but it doesn't work that way.  Further email from these m*nst*rs can be made to go to trash bin.  I want it to be blocked (out of my sight), or rejected and returned to sender.  I wrote to email place and asked what can be done?  Like they're going to answer.  <br />
Sure, I can think of alternatives like changing my email addy.  I don't want to do that.  I have too much to do in too short a time now, and there's a lot involved.  Besides, I have a lot invested in that name....  But, I might have to.  There is no doubt in my mind that I will be contacted further.  I will not answer.<br />
<br />
My life has gone from p**nful to being at the tip of an abyss of chaos since the end of March (a traditionally very bad time for me for some reason).  This includes a misdiagnosis which led to medicating me with something that made me more ill.  Then I went to a dermatologist, who did a lot mess up my case, along with shall be say an unkindness that occurred during minor s*rg*ry to remove what he was trying to fool me into thinking was a skin tag, but which I was later told was biopsied as a wart.  I'm not sure that is so either, and have doubts that the procedure was done properly.  It is an increasing policy to play head games and lie to people over 65.  I can't believe how I'm spoken to by medical professionals.  I just let them talk.  If they're not trustworthy and don't respect me as a human being, I want to know up front.  The whole thing is so out of hand.<br />
SP follows:<br />
*<br />
*<br />
*<br />
*<br />
*<br />
*<br />
*  <br />
<br />
It is my feeling that this world, universe, is in a h*ly war.  This is coming from an atheist, of a complex kind.  I've engaged  something I don't understand.  It's not a matter of political parties, or religion one-upmanship, or economic theories, or truth vs fantasy re terrorists, etc.  It's something else.  <br />
Sometimes a voice of reason shows up in a newspaper, but it's drowned out.  Life as we have known it is disappearing, replaced by war and bs buzz words.  In my experience with the unknown, there is too much intent consciousness to be ignored.<br />
  <br />
I know I have to find my own way out.<br />
<br />
Thank you,<br />
tweeter]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[My Computer Bit It]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=848</link>
			<pubDate>Sat, 18 May 2013 21:04:05 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[My computer died like 3 weeks ago or something. We are just getting back up and running now. Still troubleshooting some hardware before we full load all our stuff. Seems like nVidia and Realtek drivers hate each other, hate Windows 7 and 8, and just hate in general. So I've had no sound, and I can only get picture not using the HDMI on my monitor which sucks it cuz my work laptop uses the VGA port already, and so now when I work from home I have to unplug the VGA cable from my computer and plug it into my docking station.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[My computer died like 3 weeks ago or something. We are just getting back up and running now. Still troubleshooting some hardware before we full load all our stuff. Seems like nVidia and Realtek drivers hate each other, hate Windows 7 and 8, and just hate in general. So I've had no sound, and I can only get picture not using the HDMI on my monitor which sucks it cuz my work laptop uses the VGA port already, and so now when I work from home I have to unplug the VGA cable from my computer and plug it into my docking station.]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[residential treatment]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=846</link>
			<pubDate>Sun, 12 May 2013 16:24:01 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[Hi everyone.<br />
Feeling really down and scared and could use your support. My son has become increasingly angry and destructive. It became so bad that my mother filed a restraining order and police showed up and ordered us to leave our home within ten minutes. We are in a local hotel for now. I believe he requires a psychiatric stay as well as residential treatment in order to learn coping skills. I hope he can be helped. I am starting to discover that one of his parts might be responsible for editing photos and sending harassing emails. I am so confused! I don't know how much of his history is real and how much is from his own possible delusions. I am really scared. He has never been away from home and I want him to be safe. This is the toughest thing I will ever have to do ( I hope ). <br />
Has anyone here ever been to a inpatient facility? Were they able to help? What do you think I can expect? I don't want him drugged and magically cured within a few weeks. I want real treatment for him.<br />
Please keep us in your thoughts. We don't have much of a support system currently but I am hoping if my son gets the help he requires we will be able to resume a healthy lifestyle.<br />
I wish I could make him feel better myself but I can't!]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[Hi everyone.<br />
Feeling really down and scared and could use your support. My son has become increasingly angry and destructive. It became so bad that my mother filed a restraining order and police showed up and ordered us to leave our home within ten minutes. We are in a local hotel for now. I believe he requires a psychiatric stay as well as residential treatment in order to learn coping skills. I hope he can be helped. I am starting to discover that one of his parts might be responsible for editing photos and sending harassing emails. I am so confused! I don't know how much of his history is real and how much is from his own possible delusions. I am really scared. He has never been away from home and I want him to be safe. This is the toughest thing I will ever have to do ( I hope ). <br />
Has anyone here ever been to a inpatient facility? Were they able to help? What do you think I can expect? I don't want him drugged and magically cured within a few weeks. I want real treatment for him.<br />
Please keep us in your thoughts. We don't have much of a support system currently but I am hoping if my son gets the help he requires we will be able to resume a healthy lifestyle.<br />
I wish I could make him feel better myself but I can't!]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[looking for advise from other Marines]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=844</link>
			<pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2013 12:03:12 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[What do you do when you have a commitment to your big and the younger kids in your system to get a project done but, one of your teammates for the project gets herself grounded and so she can't help unless you wait to start? I don't  know what the f*ck to do. My JROTC side is thinking screw it. I have a project to finish! come hell or high water the mission comes first  Semper FI! so <div class="sr_mybbcoder_spoiler"><div class="sr_mybbcoder_spoiler_header">Spoiler<a onclick="sr_mybbcoder_spoiler_show(this);">(Show)</a></div><div class="sr_mybbcoder_spoiler_message" id="spoiler_1">f*ck the rosey rotgut</div></div> idiot who can't think how her actions will affect everyone else. <br />
<br />
I have a month but, I am more than sorry i asked a civilian for help with it.<img src="images/mm-icons/volcano.gif" style="vertical-align: middle;" border="0" alt="Volcano" title="Volcano" /> People say "Army" means not aren't ready to be Marines Yet. but, that's wrong that's what civilian means. <br />
<br />
Lizzy age 10 junior inner-Marine for Dreamers system]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[What do you do when you have a commitment to your big and the younger kids in your system to get a project done but, one of your teammates for the project gets herself grounded and so she can't help unless you wait to start? I don't  know what the f*ck to do. My JROTC side is thinking screw it. I have a project to finish! come hell or high water the mission comes first  Semper FI! so <div class="sr_mybbcoder_spoiler"><div class="sr_mybbcoder_spoiler_header">Spoiler<a onclick="sr_mybbcoder_spoiler_show(this);">(Show)</a></div><div class="sr_mybbcoder_spoiler_message" id="spoiler_1">f*ck the rosey rotgut</div></div> idiot who can't think how her actions will affect everyone else. <br />
<br />
I have a month but, I am more than sorry i asked a civilian for help with it.<img src="images/mm-icons/volcano.gif" style="vertical-align: middle;" border="0" alt="Volcano" title="Volcano" /> People say "Army" means not aren't ready to be Marines Yet. but, that's wrong that's what civilian means. <br />
<br />
Lizzy age 10 junior inner-Marine for Dreamers system]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[Go AWAY!]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=843</link>
			<pubDate>Thu, 09 May 2013 19:54:59 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[YA F*CKSTERS!  Not everybody celebrates Mother's Day!  Not everybody wants to be reminded that this so over rated day needs to be celebrated.  No disrespect to the mothers here who do their best for their children but I am neither a parent not do I have any.  The day is like being thrown into a bee hive just when the Queen is ready to do her thing.  So f*ck OFF with your cards and email reminders when I don't even know how the f*ck I got on your list.[/font]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[YA F*CKSTERS!  Not everybody celebrates Mother's Day!  Not everybody wants to be reminded that this so over rated day needs to be celebrated.  No disrespect to the mothers here who do their best for their children but I am neither a parent not do I have any.  The day is like being thrown into a bee hive just when the Queen is ready to do her thing.  So f*ck OFF with your cards and email reminders when I don't even know how the f*ck I got on your list.[/font]]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[Scared, Skeptical, and have no idea]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=842</link>
			<pubDate>Thu, 09 May 2013 16:43:16 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[I've been with my current therapist for three years and she knows that we are 'we'. She has accepted it and believes it. She has never dealt with it before and she has absolutely no idea who she is ever speaking to. (ok, so that comes with 'playing' therapy) Apparently, week before last, someone else offered information. I learned this Tuesday when my T announced that there had been an "breakthrough". Now, I'm scared to death. She wants to meet one of my others and I don't know how to do that. I don't pull them out of a magicians hat. How do you manage to bring one forth? There are some that I can be co-conscious with, but this is not one of them. If this one does come forth, what if the T doesn't believe her? What if she can't help? I'm terrified for next week.<br />
<br />
Fin]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[I've been with my current therapist for three years and she knows that we are 'we'. She has accepted it and believes it. She has never dealt with it before and she has absolutely no idea who she is ever speaking to. (ok, so that comes with 'playing' therapy) Apparently, week before last, someone else offered information. I learned this Tuesday when my T announced that there had been an "breakthrough". Now, I'm scared to death. She wants to meet one of my others and I don't know how to do that. I don't pull them out of a magicians hat. How do you manage to bring one forth? There are some that I can be co-conscious with, but this is not one of them. If this one does come forth, what if the T doesn't believe her? What if she can't help? I'm terrified for next week.<br />
<br />
Fin]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[What am I gonna do....]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=841</link>
			<pubDate>Tue, 07 May 2013 20:42:38 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[at this point of building my practice, i take almost any client who walks in the door...<br />
<br />
as of now i have three... count 'em.... three!  adolescent clients.  <br />
<br />
i never planned on working with teenagers.  <br />
<br />
teenagers scare me!  <br />
<br />
i wasn't a typical teenager, and never understood teenagers when i was one.  <br />
<br />
oooooh....  what am i thinking<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
there...  terrified rant over....   breathe...  i can do this ... breathe...]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[at this point of building my practice, i take almost any client who walks in the door...<br />
<br />
as of now i have three... count 'em.... three!  adolescent clients.  <br />
<br />
i never planned on working with teenagers.  <br />
<br />
teenagers scare me!  <br />
<br />
i wasn't a typical teenager, and never understood teenagers when i was one.  <br />
<br />
oooooh....  what am i thinking<br />
<br />
<br />
<br />
there...  terrified rant over....   breathe...  i can do this ... breathe...]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[Just registered here.]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=840</link>
			<pubDate>Tue, 07 May 2013 11:25:20 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[Hey all,<br />
<br />
Just registered here so thought I'd better do the ol... introduction bit on behalf of the Fireflies.<br />
<br />
k so my name is Michael, and I'm probably the most outspoken of us. I'm 16, and male, but the body is female and much older than me.<br />
<br />
I really don't know what to say about us really. We are fairly stable most of the time these days. We've had heaps of therapy in the past. I personally don't like most therapists! and avoid them. We are currently off all meds and just being sort of 'supervised' or what ever in case we relapse or something. We're not interested in integration, just co-operative and empowered living.<br />
<br />
So anyways... yeah. Guess she was DXed 10 or so years ago. might be 11 now. But i don't consider that I'm DXed with anything. I'm just me! I've changed a lot over the years since they first dragged me back out to the surface. Use to be quite angry at the world, but less so now.<br />
<br />
Just interested in meeting others like me, who will accept me as I am. Still trying to accept myself sometimes! <br />
<br />
so would like to make friend of all ages.<br />
<br />
Some of the others may talk too.<br />
<br />
Michael]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[Hey all,<br />
<br />
Just registered here so thought I'd better do the ol... introduction bit on behalf of the Fireflies.<br />
<br />
k so my name is Michael, and I'm probably the most outspoken of us. I'm 16, and male, but the body is female and much older than me.<br />
<br />
I really don't know what to say about us really. We are fairly stable most of the time these days. We've had heaps of therapy in the past. I personally don't like most therapists! and avoid them. We are currently off all meds and just being sort of 'supervised' or what ever in case we relapse or something. We're not interested in integration, just co-operative and empowered living.<br />
<br />
So anyways... yeah. Guess she was DXed 10 or so years ago. might be 11 now. But i don't consider that I'm DXed with anything. I'm just me! I've changed a lot over the years since they first dragged me back out to the surface. Use to be quite angry at the world, but less so now.<br />
<br />
Just interested in meeting others like me, who will accept me as I am. Still trying to accept myself sometimes! <br />
<br />
so would like to make friend of all ages.<br />
<br />
Some of the others may talk too.<br />
<br />
Michael]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[A stroll around town]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=838</link>
			<pubDate>Mon, 06 May 2013 00:36:26 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[We have spent this evening taking a stroll around Mosaic Minds and find it quite interesting. It is refreshing to find a forum for those that have lived with multiplicity for many years. <br />
<br />
We were initially diagnosed about 25 years ago. Things were very quiet for a while and then events caused a series of tidal waves that we are currently experiencing. We didn't know how to deal with it then and we have no idea how to deal with it now. <br />
<br />
The spinning never stops. Wish we knew how.<br />
<br />
Fin]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[We have spent this evening taking a stroll around Mosaic Minds and find it quite interesting. It is refreshing to find a forum for those that have lived with multiplicity for many years. <br />
<br />
We were initially diagnosed about 25 years ago. Things were very quiet for a while and then events caused a series of tidal waves that we are currently experiencing. We didn't know how to deal with it then and we have no idea how to deal with it now. <br />
<br />
The spinning never stops. Wish we knew how.<br />
<br />
Fin]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[New but long overdue]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=835</link>
			<pubDate>Fri, 03 May 2013 04:22:09 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[Hi. My name is Ripley.  I've had DID since I was a child. In recent years I've managed to get through college and am now a forensic psychologist in my home town.  Lately I have struggled with social circumstances.  Because I isolated for so long, I have no real support system outside of my current therapist and that's not healthy.  Being back close to my family has proven to be a real mental challenge for me.<br />
<br />
I'm very pleased to have found this site, as it was mentioned in the back of the Dissociative Identity Disorder Sourcebook I just finished reading. <br />
<br />
I look forward to meeting you all and supporting you all as I can.<br />
-Ripley]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[Hi. My name is Ripley.  I've had DID since I was a child. In recent years I've managed to get through college and am now a forensic psychologist in my home town.  Lately I have struggled with social circumstances.  Because I isolated for so long, I have no real support system outside of my current therapist and that's not healthy.  Being back close to my family has proven to be a real mental challenge for me.<br />
<br />
I'm very pleased to have found this site, as it was mentioned in the back of the Dissociative Identity Disorder Sourcebook I just finished reading. <br />
<br />
I look forward to meeting you all and supporting you all as I can.<br />
-Ripley]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[A loss]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=834</link>
			<pubDate>Thu, 02 May 2013 07:55:50 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[Yesterday I opened my email to learn that a friend of mine passed away.  He was not a lover or a heart to heart kind of guy.  He was so nice though.  So safe and accepting and we had fun together.  Whe i read this I regretted never having told him how happy I was that he was my friend.  Never used that word.  <br />
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Later that day I BCCd many friends, told them off my loss and then told them that I needed to tell them what I never told him.  How important they were.  That while I ruffled feathers and got angry at times I cared about each and every one of them.  Just as i do the people here.<br />
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The friendships i form here are different as i do not get to see the people I talk with.  We don`t play games or just have fun.  But I do still care about you and am happy that you are in my life.<img src="images/smilies/heart.gif" style="vertical-align: middle;" border="0" alt="Heart" title="Heart" />]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[Yesterday I opened my email to learn that a friend of mine passed away.  He was not a lover or a heart to heart kind of guy.  He was so nice though.  So safe and accepting and we had fun together.  Whe i read this I regretted never having told him how happy I was that he was my friend.  Never used that word.  <br />
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Later that day I BCCd many friends, told them off my loss and then told them that I needed to tell them what I never told him.  How important they were.  That while I ruffled feathers and got angry at times I cared about each and every one of them.  Just as i do the people here.<br />
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The friendships i form here are different as i do not get to see the people I talk with.  We don`t play games or just have fun.  But I do still care about you and am happy that you are in my life.<img src="images/smilies/heart.gif" style="vertical-align: middle;" border="0" alt="Heart" title="Heart" />]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[We're back]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=833</link>
			<pubDate>Sat, 27 Apr 2013 14:56:39 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[Hi! Not sure if anyone will remember us or not. We used to post here but have been away for quite awhile. Its good to be back - feels like we need some understanding and support.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[Hi! Not sure if anyone will remember us or not. We used to post here but have been away for quite awhile. Its good to be back - feels like we need some understanding and support.]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[Connections]]></title>
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			<pubDate>Fri, 26 Apr 2013 16:51:23 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[This week we have been doing ALOT of thinking.  Taking stock of our life, and making realizations.  <br />
When I saw our T this week I was able to actually SEE her trying to help us.  This was a new observation to me.  And while talking to her, words just seemed to fall out of my mouth and thinking about it after, the realizations came to me.  I see 3D people in general as not human as a way to protect myself from being hurt.  It also makes connections impossible to make, which also lessons the chance of being hurt.  This on the other hand also keeps me feeling isolated and alone, something that I desperately want to change.  So in talking to T this week I realized this.  She listened to me and appeared to understand what I was saying.  Then I was able to see her try to help me.  I wrote her out an email with some of my wants/needs on it and had to receive permission from her to send it.....(not something I have to do on a regular basis, but I needed permission for myself)  Any ways everything worked out well.  I am finding it hard to believe right now, but I took a HUGE risk and it worked out well so far.  She wasn't angry or upset at me, in fact she actually told me she was proud of me for having the courage to do that.  That is something I am definitely not accustomed to hearing.  <br />
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I have realized that even though  my old T has helped me in some ways, and I don't want to discredit her for that........but I spent 4 years with her thinking I was doing "this...T with her......."wrong.  I thought that I had to do it on my own.  I thought my needs/wants were something I had to figure out for myself, she encouraged independence, which was something I have always had.  I have always thought I had to do things on my own, so what she was trying to tell me kinda fit in with all the messages I gave myself.  Even though I knew I couldn't do it on my own I figured I was just doing it wrong and couldn't figure out how to do it right.  And when I was at my wits end, and got tired of spinning and trying to do it right and always failing miserably, we decided maybe it was time to look elsewhere because something was just not right.<br />
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So now I am with new T and I thought to try one more time to tell her what I was thinking and how I couldn't figure it out so I could do it "right" and she says to me...........you don't have to do it on your own, and she wants to help me, by showing me, teaching me, and she says she will do that until I am able to do it for myself. She told me it is not wrong.   WOAH!!!!  I am in shock a lil bit and terrified at the same time.  But it feels kinda good at the same time.  Maybe this is what making a connection feels like.  <br />
Any ways I guess I will see how this all plays out on Tuesday.  I will be keeping my fingers crossed until then hoping what she says is what she actually means.<br />
TW]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[This week we have been doing ALOT of thinking.  Taking stock of our life, and making realizations.  <br />
When I saw our T this week I was able to actually SEE her trying to help us.  This was a new observation to me.  And while talking to her, words just seemed to fall out of my mouth and thinking about it after, the realizations came to me.  I see 3D people in general as not human as a way to protect myself from being hurt.  It also makes connections impossible to make, which also lessons the chance of being hurt.  This on the other hand also keeps me feeling isolated and alone, something that I desperately want to change.  So in talking to T this week I realized this.  She listened to me and appeared to understand what I was saying.  Then I was able to see her try to help me.  I wrote her out an email with some of my wants/needs on it and had to receive permission from her to send it.....(not something I have to do on a regular basis, but I needed permission for myself)  Any ways everything worked out well.  I am finding it hard to believe right now, but I took a HUGE risk and it worked out well so far.  She wasn't angry or upset at me, in fact she actually told me she was proud of me for having the courage to do that.  That is something I am definitely not accustomed to hearing.  <br />
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I have realized that even though  my old T has helped me in some ways, and I don't want to discredit her for that........but I spent 4 years with her thinking I was doing "this...T with her......."wrong.  I thought that I had to do it on my own.  I thought my needs/wants were something I had to figure out for myself, she encouraged independence, which was something I have always had.  I have always thought I had to do things on my own, so what she was trying to tell me kinda fit in with all the messages I gave myself.  Even though I knew I couldn't do it on my own I figured I was just doing it wrong and couldn't figure out how to do it right.  And when I was at my wits end, and got tired of spinning and trying to do it right and always failing miserably, we decided maybe it was time to look elsewhere because something was just not right.<br />
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So now I am with new T and I thought to try one more time to tell her what I was thinking and how I couldn't figure it out so I could do it "right" and she says to me...........you don't have to do it on your own, and she wants to help me, by showing me, teaching me, and she says she will do that until I am able to do it for myself. She told me it is not wrong.   WOAH!!!!  I am in shock a lil bit and terrified at the same time.  But it feels kinda good at the same time.  Maybe this is what making a connection feels like.  <br />
Any ways I guess I will see how this all plays out on Tuesday.  I will be keeping my fingers crossed until then hoping what she says is what she actually means.<br />
TW]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[A little sad tonight]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=831</link>
			<pubDate>Thu, 25 Apr 2013 23:30:28 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[I  feel the blues creeping in. A picture from my past snuck up on me while I wasn't paying attention and <br />
wham! The blues are here again. I keep spiraling down. I grab myself, but away I go spiraling down. I'll be okay. I just hope it doesn't last too long this time.<img src="images/smilies/sad.gif" style="vertical-align: middle;" border="0" alt="Sad" title="Sad" />]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[I  feel the blues creeping in. A picture from my past snuck up on me while I wasn't paying attention and <br />
wham! The blues are here again. I keep spiraling down. I grab myself, but away I go spiraling down. I'll be okay. I just hope it doesn't last too long this time.<img src="images/smilies/sad.gif" style="vertical-align: middle;" border="0" alt="Sad" title="Sad" />]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[hello]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=830</link>
			<pubDate>Thu, 25 Apr 2013 23:11:44 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[Hi everybody,<br />
I used to come to the old site once in awhile.This place looks nice.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[Hi everybody,<br />
I used to come to the old site once in awhile.This place looks nice.]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[The first bond]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=829</link>
			<pubDate>Wed, 24 Apr 2013 06:44:53 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[I spent yesterday analyzing fallout from past events, feelings, some of which are currently healing.  I realized that a gaping hole in my being was caused by my mother Never bonding with me, neither before nor after my emergence. Explains a lot.  This bonding is a foundation.<br />
tweeter]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[I spent yesterday analyzing fallout from past events, feelings, some of which are currently healing.  I realized that a gaping hole in my being was caused by my mother Never bonding with me, neither before nor after my emergence. Explains a lot.  This bonding is a foundation.<br />
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			<title><![CDATA[On touch]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=827</link>
			<pubDate>Sun, 21 Apr 2013 22:16:10 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[We have been chatting with someone about touch.  Won't get into why it came up but we explained to her that it brought out fight or flight with us unless it is kids or animals.  We have gotten better as we can hug friends when we see them.  And we must say that we like that.  Although it pretty much has to be planned.  We still don't like relative strangers hugging us and sometimes they insist which really pisses us off.  <br />
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It is hard.  We are human and like most humans have the need to be touched.  But when someone does it we want to run screaming from the room.  We have always known this but never saw it as a fight or flight issue until the topic came up.  Sucks.  Thank goodness for kitties.<br /><!-- start: postbit_attachments_attachment -->
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[We have been chatting with someone about touch.  Won't get into why it came up but we explained to her that it brought out fight or flight with us unless it is kids or animals.  We have gotten better as we can hug friends when we see them.  And we must say that we like that.  Although it pretty much has to be planned.  We still don't like relative strangers hugging us and sometimes they insist which really pisses us off.  <br />
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It is hard.  We are human and like most humans have the need to be touched.  But when someone does it we want to run screaming from the room.  We have always known this but never saw it as a fight or flight issue until the topic came up.  Sucks.  Thank goodness for kitties.<br /><!-- start: postbit_attachments_attachment -->
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			<title><![CDATA[Pirate Joke]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=826</link>
			<pubDate>Sun, 21 Apr 2013 22:08:01 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[How much does a Pirate pay for earrings?<br />
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A buckaneer!  LOL!]]></description>
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			<title><![CDATA[Night time leg cramps fix]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=825</link>
			<pubDate>Sat, 20 Apr 2013 01:41:01 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[I finally found a useful tool for eliminating leg cramps at night from a web site this doctor runs. He says that drinking tonic water with quinine in it will do the trick. I tried it, and I had my first sleep for weeks without walking up in severe pain. Not all tonic water is equal so make sure you buy some with actual quinine in it. I've got Schweppes and Canada Dry, and about 6 oz works for me. More or less may be needed in different cases. Wow. Something that works for a change! I absolutely HAD to share this little gem with my friends at MM.<br />
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PS: Tonic water tastes like crap. The quinine makes it very bitter. Just pretend it's medicine. Squeeze a little wedge of lemon in it and that helps a bit.]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[I finally found a useful tool for eliminating leg cramps at night from a web site this doctor runs. He says that drinking tonic water with quinine in it will do the trick. I tried it, and I had my first sleep for weeks without walking up in severe pain. Not all tonic water is equal so make sure you buy some with actual quinine in it. I've got Schweppes and Canada Dry, and about 6 oz works for me. More or less may be needed in different cases. Wow. Something that works for a change! I absolutely HAD to share this little gem with my friends at MM.<br />
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PS: Tonic water tastes like crap. The quinine makes it very bitter. Just pretend it's medicine. Squeeze a little wedge of lemon in it and that helps a bit.]]></content:encoded>
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			<title><![CDATA[Confused]]></title>
			<link>http://www.mosaicminds.org/forums/showthread.php?tid=823</link>
			<pubDate>Thu, 18 Apr 2013 15:20:29 +0000</pubDate>
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			<description><![CDATA[Ok, not sure if this would trigger anyone or not, so I'll give space to decide<br />
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I am in my 50s and after years of therapy, T and I felt integration was complete. I've gone to school, completed an LPN course of study and waiting to begin the last year for my RN, a lifelong dream... Meanwhile, I've been seeing T every 3-6 months just as a way of checking in...kind of on maintenance. For the last several months I felt like we were more again, but thought I was making it up... Then for the last two visits T has quietly asked if I have been feeling any others... I didn't admit to it, but asked why she asked and she said she was just wondering. I'll talk to her about it at the next visit, but was wondering if this has happened to anyone else. I didn't expect it at all. Then I read dreamer's post and it sounded a little familiar, so I thought I would post. The new ones aren't familiar and I don't know if they remained hidden or what, but they're talking a lot and the confusion, neediness and arguing feels really familiar and all I can think is I can't go through this again... I can't put the rest of my life on hold again... <br />
Sorry I rambled ...not sure how to say things succinctly.]]></description>
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I am in my 50s and after years of therapy, T and I felt integration was complete. I've gone to school, completed an LPN course of study and waiting to begin the last year for my RN, a lifelong dream... Meanwhile, I've been seeing T every 3-6 months just as a way of checking in...kind of on maintenance. For the last several months I felt like we were more again, but thought I was making it up... Then for the last two visits T has quietly asked if I have been feeling any others... I didn't admit to it, but asked why she asked and she said she was just wondering. I'll talk to her about it at the next visit, but was wondering if this has happened to anyone else. I didn't expect it at all. Then I read dreamer's post and it sounded a little familiar, so I thought I would post. The new ones aren't familiar and I don't know if they remained hidden or what, but they're talking a lot and the confusion, neediness and arguing feels really familiar and all I can think is I can't go through this again... I can't put the rest of my life on hold again... <br />
Sorry I rambled ...not sure how to say things succinctly.]]></content:encoded>
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