overwhelmed, triggered 24/7, and struggling

[chem_in_6]

we're still struggling and insanely triggered... to the point of showering in the dark because body seems gross and very triggering to the younger ones. we normally can tolerate a shower with the lights on right now, but light is making us feel exposed. this is awful. we want the body memories to stop.

we were switchy in class today. very much not good. there's 3 different handwritings on a lab that's being turned in later, and that may or may not be accepted by the professor. we're too switchy to have one person stay out for long periods of time so that handwriting is uniform.

we don't want to go to class. we feel awful, sad, terribly scared, and too damn exhausted to sit through classes. poor body is hurting. head, wrists, right hip, lower abdomen, and right knee are all reminding us that we need to rest. some in more nice ways than others. f*ck*ng pain, go away!

-the crew minus the younger ones.