Feeling stuck creatively

[WendyLee]

We ate too much junk food today and are really stressed out.

the landlord did NOT come back yesterday like he said to fix the attic wall so it is just loose boards stuck up between the duplex sides. he did nail the attic door shut. we are very scared of being attacked by ppl looking for drugs or money or things to sell even tho' we blocked the attic door with a bunch of stuff. we had a neighbor call him but no one answered the phone. we will call the insurance co tomorrow to see if we can stay at a motel until he can fix the wall, but are concerned about more thefts if we leave the house for very long.

and the landlord left a huge hole in the outside front stairs when he tried to fix them and found it needed more work than he expected. he was going to come back to fix this, too, but never came back yesterday like he said he would and he did not call or come by today. we hate to call ppl and bother them since that can backfire.
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OK, we took half a xanax and feel a little bit better and can try to think of options. but we are not doing too well at all. it is horrible to be alone and broke and in chronic pain. we do not know how to fix this situation.

Plan A. Stay here and keep small purse on my body with cell phone and money and dr lic, and be ready to call 999 if we hear someone breaking into the house from the attic or doors or windows, then go to plan B or plan C. we are so scared to do this but scared for more robbery if we go away. the son and a neighbor say that we will be OK, but the robbing duplex mate jerks are out on bail for having stolen property and domestic violence, both happend last week. they also have a long list of other bad things they did and we just found out about.

Plan B. My sort of strange but nice neighbor said we could sleep on her couch if we want. but the couch is too small and the creepy ferret makes our nose itch, and they are really very weird people, drama wise and I don't like to go there much anyway since she always is behind on her bills and asks me for money even tho she has a very good job. (we think some ppl ask for money even if they do not need it, just for fun.)

Plan C. one son is on vacation. his house is about half an hour away or so but we won't drive there now since we took the pill. the electric and water are turned off at the mains and it is spooky at his house, especially after dark in the woods with no street light, but there are nice elderly neighbors around the corner.
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Oh my, the 1/2 x pill is too strong for some of the alters and we have to stop since we are feeling a bit woozy now. we will have to do plan A b/c we cannot get up rgt now. bye.