I will never have that`

[Silent Society]

I am not sure that comparing your life to what someone says on tv is a good idea. While I hear what you are saying, what people say on tv is always the best of the best. They have down times too. We just don't see or hear about those down times often.
I think that just because you don't have it now does not mean that you will never have it. I think that it is difficult for us multis to imagine that life can be different just because it has been really difficult for so long. I also think that animals are so important. That cat means a lot to you and you mean the world to the kitty. That is a big deal. Just hoping to encourage you a little and say hang in there.