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[orek]

I think I get it, tangled. Yes, our Ts may not need to know all our processes, but I also find myself feeling anxious sometimes about wanting my T to understand certain inner processes, like way more than there's time to explain and usually involving more details than necessary for her to help us. Not sure why--was just pondering that earlier--but it's like we're afraid she won't "get" or believe us if she doesn't hear it all. Nevertheless, you do want your T to validate and address your fears and concerns. I'm sorry if you don't feel heard and supported that way. I forget how long you've been with this T, but our last T was excellent, and it was still 3 years before insiders wrote to her, and another year before they showed up in therapy. It's time when it's time, and not until they feel safe enough. It's already easier with our new T, partly because of the great last experience, but your therapy is yours and unique. You're not doing anything wrong!

We also get the separating in order to function bit. Our chaos, especially when we first were diagnosed, manifested differently, but it wasn't fun. However, it doesn't necessarily mean it'll be that way again for you (or me). You've come a long way! Take a couple deep breaths and be gentle with yourselves if you can. Again, you're not doing anything wrong, just continuing to push forward. And that's a good thing!