Disempowered

[Downtherabbithole]

Sorry got little emotional there, point I was trying to make, was that because of this, I'm less willing to make the same mistakes as before, less willing to take the risks, just leaving house causes the occasional confrontation where someone yells n screams or threatens me with glass bottle, or hits on me. I'm less willing to take those risks because I know if something bad happens it was like I was just asking for it to happen because I didn't stay away. Like part of me still thinks that way, courage lil one she says, I know ur afraid, but we can do this. But others who hold memories of the events that cause fear don't find comfort in that. If I leave the house I do so knowing if something happens, it's my fault cause I was there rather than in safety of my own home.