Reaching out

[Collectively US]

Hey everyone, th is is my first post outside the intro and it's a hefty one. We are currently in an unsafe environment, mind it's not always unsafe but my Alters, are either scared or mad at my husband. They are pressuring me to leave him and if I don't leave then they will take over and put me away for a while. Also I'm being pushed by my mother to leave as well. The hard part is not wanting to leave because I hope that it gets better, but knowing that it maybe what I have to do. It's been hard talking to others in my life about my situation, we get all panicky inside and outside. I wish it was just so simple but it's not. I've been switching a lot and I've been getting journal entries from them some are down right mad and yelling at me and others her and plead with me...well I don't know what to say other then we are very conflicted or maybe I am the one more conflicted then they are.